Some toasty cigarettes

Bought a pack of cigarettes, without the intention of smoking (also) but just to have it inside my bag (J.D. Coe wrote something like this, about Claire).
ot buying a lighter. It's like having a book on your high bookcase without having a little ladder to take it (it might be that reading is better than smoking but maybe sometimes "is better" to not know what "is better". Besides if you think too much about "what is better" can happen that "what is better" become useless and uninspired).

(Damn) thoughts

Most of the thoughts are about someone who is died.
There is also another kind of thoughts, this is about absurd.
Maybe this is just the explanation that if we could choose between Life and Utopia we'd choose the second one.
But is not only to run away from life, is just becouse life (sometimes) sucks and it's better to let it run away from us.
Is almost obviously that is so better to surf on human imagination that to think about how many crap things human being have made.

Riguardo al passato

Tutti fighi e tutti geni, a quanto pare.

Just a bit

Being undecided makes life difficult.
Never knowing what to do makes live difficult.
The solution could be living in a book, there everything is perfect.
The "things" just happen and the reader does Nothing.

It's like The "Waiting for Godot".
"He" (or maybe "it", or she) does not exist. But let's wait (why not? Do you have something better to do than doing Nothing?) just "to do something".